Saturday 22 December 2012
Dear God, please don’t let me be anything other than straight
...
"For twenty-one years, I have been paralyzed by the fear of what this society will do with me if they ever were to know of the thoughts that I continually push away. For more than two decades, I have made a choice to be straight. After all, it’s as easy as making a choice, isn’t it? This culture has made sure that I know that. Anyone who is anything other than straight was just someone deceived by the devil. He is unnatural. He is confused. He is mistaken. He is weak. He can control it if he desires to control it. Such a compelling and ongoing argument has been made that I have always trusted it.
I believed that if I hid it long enough, and ran from it long enough, and refused to acknowledge it for long enough, I could indeed succeed at living up to their decrees. I believed that I could force myself to never be anything else.
Teeter-tottering on that belief, I got married. To a woman. Our marriage was laced with sexual anxiety and dysfunction. I loathed having sex with her not because I wasn’t attracted to her, but because my sexuality continually screamed to me that I was a deceitful sell-out who lacked integrity. We eventually got divorced.
I got married again. Quickly. To another woman. Surely, surely if I married someone fantastically beautiful and to whom I was very attracted, I would never have to acknowledge the truth whose screams were silenced inside of me all those years. I would never have to grant further thought to the feelings of self-betrayal that plagued me for so long. It was my choice, damn it, and I was choosing to be what I had to be.
She finally left. The last words that she chose to use before she drove away were, “I don’t care what you say, I know that you’re gay.”
...
Source: Anything Other than Straight
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
2,057 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 1601 – 1800 of 2057 Newer› Newest»Sophia Bush @SophiaBush
Good morning from the White House! Hung with @BarackObama and @MichelleObama. She pointed to my bangs and said, "I'm trying to be you!" And yes. Then I died. And then I came back to life blushing. I love that woman.
http://instagram.com/p/UoqdriDiIy/
Jan 18
1:03: OP said he didn't want to get into an argument.
Saying something is a blatant lie, well...
You also missed the "it is ALSO used..."
OP wasn't saying that this tactic is ONLY used at the start of a PR hookup. Sometimes it is stand-alone, just for a single news hit.
LOL Sophia Bush doesn't exploit romance for self-promotion. How about her 'political activism' or her gulf oil spill volunteering? Etc. That girl is all about the game.
They all are.
DataLounge's "TrollDar" caught our resident ESL poster talking to himself over there on that thread with his JIS stories.
Pretending to be friends with Jake... LOL.
1:03: OP said he didn't want to get into an argument.
You are saying: "OP doesn't care what others think!"? Or ...?
LOL Sophia Bush doesn't exploit romance for self-promotion.
How about giving an argument instead 'LOL'? :)
Saying something is a blatant lie, well...
Because it is.
Denying romantic involvement with someone more famous is one of the most common tactics celebs use to get ink. It is also the first step toward building up suspense for a PR relationship.
This is blatant lie:
1. because that doesn't happen in reality
2. because 12:16pm said that as comment to Sophia Bush Us Weekly article, suggesting it has something to do with her tactics - available info suggests otherwise.
How about her 'political activism' or her gulf oil spill volunteering? Etc. That girl is all about the game.
How about facts? That girl denied two "relationships" in last 6 months.
Seems to me that Sophia isn't interested in playing that game.
That girl denied two "relationships" in last 6 months.
Seems to me that Sophia isn't interested in playing that game.
I think what this poster is missing is that the supposed romance rumor is manufactured by her people in the first place (or his, though it usually comes from the less famous camp with the other's consent).
She gets press whether she is dating Josh or not. The very idea of her with him is out there now, and that makes her more relevant. Remember, she isn't linked to a single project right now.
If people are interested, early blog posts of Lainey (before she got bought off and became a PR mouthpiece herself) are full of great analysis and info on how the PR game is played. The upshot is this - about 90% of stories in mags like US, People and Star are planted by publicists. Some are true (with plenty of beneficial spin, off course) and some are totally made-up narratives just to keep that person in the news.
My favorite example of the moment. For years, we didn't hear one peep about Jessica Chastain's love life. Not a word. She's a truly private person. But the past two weeks she's been linked romantically with two different attractive actors in the gossip mags. It is not a coincidence that she is up for an Oscar and in full-on campaign mode.
5:32 pm - how many times you need to be told the obvious: if Sophia was interested in getting publicity from "relationships" she wouldn't deny them like she did - the idea is not out there because she made perfectly clear that she doesn't date them. Just like reporting about "Jake/Katie" stopped as soon as it was officially denied.
Sophia hangs out with those men, there was no need for planting fiction like "Jake and Katie" fairy tale:
Sophia Bush is no cougar. The One Tree Hill actress, 30, is slamming a Star magazine article that claims she's been secretly dating The Hunger Games' Josh Hutcherson, 20. Bush and Hit and Run actor Cameron Cruz recently visited Hutcherson while he was shooting The Hunger Games: Catching Fire in Hawaii. "Star, I'm offended," Bush tweeted Jan. 17. "I hugged Cameron a in Hawaii, too. Don't leave him out of the fun! We all love Josh, but c'mon now."
Bush also posted a screenshot of a text message conversation between herself, Hutcherson and Cruz via her official Instagram account. "I'm so happy. Where is the article?" Hutcherson asked via text. "I love that it comes out like two months afterwards, too."
This isn't the first time Bush has been falsely linked to one of her platonic pals: She was rumored to be dating That '70s Show star Topher Grace in July 2012. "Topher has been one of my dearest friends for six years," the Partners actress later explained to Us Weekly. "We have coffee all the time." (There were paparazzi photos of two of them at some restaurant.)
Yes 6:09pm, we know that OMGers hate everything and everyone who proves your crap fiction to be crap fiction.
Sarah Gordon @xoxosarahlizz
I miss talking to @AUS10NICHOLS my Internet boyfriend πππ
13h ago
I will always love you.
RIP
Heath Ledger.
Sad day. :'(
While I thought that I was learning how to live, I have been learning how to die. - Leonardo da Vinci
Brokeback Mountain - Flashback
That scene just about does me in every time.
Where did BT photos disappear?!?
Jake, smoking on the set of Prisoners, with fake BT
Wow, he looks great! He is such a handsome guy.
Neck tattoo? Jake, you wouldn't get real tattoo, would you?
It probably for the film?
"The Black List script penned by Aaron Guzikowski (“Contraband”), revolves around a small-town carpenter named Keller (Jackman) whose young daughter and best friend are kidnapped. After the cops fail to find them, Keller takes the law into his own hands, but in the process runs up against the big city detective assigned to the case."
I presumed that Jake plays big city detective so tattoo doesn't fit.
Detective Loki? I love the name - a trickster. He could have gotten the tattoo sometime in his history - military or something. Sounds like an interesting character.
Prison or gang or rock band - can't remember any soldiers with neck tattoos :)
James Franco Says Gay Rumors are Nothing New: VIDEO
"In high school these girls got mad at me and so they spread this rumor that I was having a gay relationship with one of my closest friends,. And they even made up a little dance they would do in the girl's locker room about me being gay. I still don't know what the dance was."
And after that James decided to take gay everything subjects on university and make gay themed movies...
Fuck off, PooperGirl. Yuck!!!
Jake On Set In Georgia, January 20, 2013
Jake & Naomi: 'Very Good Girls' Premiere - Sundance Film Festival
Of course crazy PG would tweet shit like this:
ToothyTile&GGoose @GoosesTile
@Patrick_Fogerty Raising an index finger to test the wind direction...judging by a GPS tweet from yesterday? I'd say
9h ago
ToothyTile&GGoose @GoosesTile
@Patrick_Fogerty there's a 95% chance for GG at the Sundance. No need to grab an umbrella for this #ShowerOfLove
ToothyTile&GGoose @GoosesTile
@Patrick_Fogerty It would be a coup, wouldn't it? Something tells me they'd be harder to catch than a wet wiener dog, lol.
AUSTIN NICHOLS @AUS10NICHOLS
Ray Donovan table read today. The writing is outstanding. The cast is top-notch. So proud to be aboard. I start shooting next Tuesday.
Jan 16
Next Tuesday = yesterday.
I start shooting next Tuesday.
Jan 16
Bad, bad Austin! lol
PG, how come you don't dare tweeting Austin about him being gay and married and having kids? Well?
PG, how come you don't dare tweeting Austin about him being gay and married and having kids?
Bacause PooperGirl is pathetic liar and coward.
Jake & Naomi: 'Very Good Girls' Premiere - Sundance Film Festival
Good boy! Jamie Lee Curtis was there with Jake and Naomi.
there's a 95% chance for GG at the Sundance
LOL! Sorry OMGers, Austin refuses to be gay and married to Jake, no matter how desperate you get.
Alex @alexclarin
When @AUS10NICHOLS from one tree hill dms me >> #IsThisRealLife #omg pic.twitter.com/K2avbPgB
Austin's DM
I would be honored. Tell me where to show up.
9 h ago
She's very young and cute. Austin is horny and ready. As usual.
Austin's DM: I would be honored. Tell me where to show up.
Troll, you got your wish! LOL! #postsexyDM
Eddie Marsan @eddiemarsan
Started work on Ray Donovan for Show Time with Liev Schreiber, Jon Voight, Paula Malcomson, Elliot Gould, Dash Mihok and Pooch Hall.
1h ago
Pooch Hall @iam_POOCHHALL
Morning my tweeps... on way to my 1st official day of shooting on @Sho_network Ray Donovan.... Kickass and Take names as my day always said
4h ago
22 January 2013
It's a big week for Jake Gyllenhaal and his family but I'd like to thank them for keeping it relatively low key while I had flu. Tonight, Naomi Foner's movie Very Good Girls - the film of the filmset that Jake frequently visited - has its premiere at the Sundance Film Festival. There had been doubts about whether Jake would manage to be there - reminding me of last year when so many thought that Jake was there when all the time he wasn't (or was he?). This time, though, a series of tweets from excited people at Atlanta Airport makes it look as if Jake has indeed made the trip. No doubt in return for doing extra tea duty on the set of Prisoners.
Naomi has spoken a little today about what directing, a shift in her life, means to her.
'Time is not on my side. I came late to directing, although I’ve been writing screenplays for most of my life, so I am in a hurry. In my case, it was, grandma directs a movie. And that meant literally, limiting the time I got to spend with my favorite people on earth, my grand daughter Ramona, and her new sister, Gloria who arrived weeks before we began to shoot. That was a big trade off, but I am hoping that they will get to see this film, and others one day. That they will tell their own stories in some form, because grandma (and mom) keep telling theirs. It’s a struggle to balance family and work for men and women, and filmmaking is especially challenging. But it lets us touch people we would never otherwise know, while still holding our dear ones close. That seems like having your cake and eating it too.'
Of course it never rains but it pours (at least in Britain), and tonight Sundance also sees the screening of Lovelace, a film which stars Peter Sarsgaard. What a day! A big family desert reunion could be on the cards.
Poor, stupid PooperGirl is so full of shit.
Dr Melei FC @DrMelei
Ok, so Jake Gyllenhaal is somewhere in Atlanta ... anyone spots him, let me know Where!
2h ago
Daily Digest @ehadsDD
Hayden Christensen's Beard? NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!: Like Jake Gyllenhaal and Shia LaBeouf before him, you... http://tmz.me/SDXmyv #gossip
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO indeed, LOL :)
Kyle Muir @Muirkat13
Eating dinner by jake gyllenhaal at the optimist in Atlanta...crazy ha
21 Jan
latest rumor: Austin Nichols got his girlfriend pregnant and will marry in February. You're welcome!
OOPS!!!
Really?!
WTF Austin?!? Are you trying to kill OMGers???
Really?!
We'll find out soon enough :) #February
What a cruel joke!
What about Austin marrying pregnant girlfriend could be "cruel"?
because is not true.
True or not, what about rumor that Austin will marry his pregnant girlfriend is "cruel"?
Cruel or not cruel why made up such a lie?
Rumor could be true and there is nothing bad or malicious about it.
Rumor could be true
Link please
3:42 pm - Too bad you can't provide any links to something indicating how rumor isn't true :)
Hey I'm The President Barack Obama, too bad you can't provide any links to something indicating how rumor isn't true.
3:49 pm = too stupid for words OMGer
Why would OMGers worry about Austin Nichols marrying a woman? They KNOW that Austin is married to Jake. At least they say so... LMAO!!!
I think Austin is straight as an arrow there is no need to made up lies.
What about Austin marrying pregnant girlfriend could be "cruel"?
YOU HAVE TO ASK???????????????
LOL :)
What a cruel joke!
WTF is wrong with you? Rumor isn't about Austin doing drugs or being ill. Austin having a kid with someone he cares about enough to get married can only be a reason to be happy for him.
Yes 4:45pm, Austin already has child/children with his husband Jake. You're welcome.
one more time
Link please
Exactly! Link please for "Austin already has child/children with his husband Jake"!
Exactly! Link please for "Jake is gay as a goose"!
:)
Exactly! Link please for "Jake is gay as a goose"!
There are hundreds of links and hundreds of explanations for "Jake is gay" opinion posted in WFT2 blog comments.
Ans there are no links and no (rational) explanations for "Jake and Austin are married and have kids" opinions. Zero.
"Jake is gay" opinion
Glad you used that word OPINION.
OPINION =/= FACT
7:58 pm = the same old.
Glad you used that word OPINION.
And I'm not glad that
1. you play stupid
2. need to be told 1.000.000 times that "this is my opinion" is always implied - and you still play stupid about it.
7:58 pm = the same old.
Yes, same old simple facts. OMGers hate facts. Silly fangirls hate facts.
8:06 pm
zzzzzzzzzzzz
Great "argument", 8:07 pm! Sore loser.
Anonymous Anonymous said...
latest rumor: Austin Nichols got his girlfriend pregnant and will marry in February. You're welcome!
Let's file this for reference in March.
PG, you being full of shit isn't amusing - it is like you, just disgusting.
latest rumor: Austin Nichols got his girlfriend pregnant and will marry in February.
Congratulations Austin!!!! :)
Congrats Austin! Another addition to da fam :)
Austin's sister Ashley has 2 or 3 kids?
No, Austin already has swirled da juices wit his husband
No, Austin already has swirled da juices wit his husband
No, that happened only in your wishful thinking.
As everyone can see from Jake and Austin's life in last 3-4 years they are just friends now. And as Jake said, on the record, more than once - there are no kids.
No, that happened only in your wishful thinking.
Dats not friendly
Dats not friendly
You are complaining about facts. What an idiot.
Yep, trolling and pathetic OMG idiots.
Shannon Connelly @Shannon_Rosexo
Don't ask me how, but I just realized my boo @AUS10NICHOLS played the hot guy in an Olsen twin movie. Oh gosh so dreamy even back then π
23h ago
Shannon Connelly @Shannon_Rosexo
@AUS10NICHOLS it won't let me message you back cause you don't follow me but thanks for making my day π✋ pic.twitter.com/0zqU76Cq
17h ago
No pic of Austin's DM.
AUSTIN NICHOLS @AUS10NICHOLS
Just finished my first episode of Ray Donovan. Catching a plane to Texas today to go make a movie.
50 m ago
LMAO!!! Austin really hates OMGers :)
maybe we could try something new and start having a civilized dialogue
You can't discuss anything with OMGers or OMG trolls - they aren't interested in discussing.
Ha, ha, told you! OMGers have shit for brains, you can't talk to stupid people who only want Jake and Austin to have kids together :)
Tweeted by PG:
The JFK assassination film Parkland has added some new cast members.
According to moviefanatic.com, Ron Livingston, Colin Hanks and Jackie Earle Haley have all been added. Additionally, Austin Nichols tweeted that he is now invovled in the film.
ttp://digitaltexan.net/2013/atx-gossip/actors-added-jfk-assassination-film-parkland/article45562/#.UQMRkWdWKSp
Just finished my first episode of Ray Donovan. Catching a plane to Texas today to go make a movie.
Jake and Austin are happy to work at the same time. No kids. No wonder OMGers hate them both.
Desperation said...
The poster at 2:15 really can't stand that Austin is gay and with Jake Gyllenhaal. Which, I for one, do believe to be most likely true. Probably, the difference between the first 2011 WFT2 blog comment about Jake and Austin being fathers and the "rumor" from yesterday that Austin in going to marry his pregnant girlfriend is that WFT2 and OMG have compiled over six years of of evidence that Jake and Austin are a couple and do have children together. The Austin rumor pops out of nowhere, based on absolutely nothing, on a night that the uncomfortable topic of Family Tile re-emerges. I think the desperation is obvious.
WFT2 and OMG have compiled over six years of of evidence that Jake and Austin are a couple and do have children together
As you can see, you can't discuss anything with liars who make up shit like this.
AUSTIN NICHOLS @AUS10NICHOLS
The movie I'm doing is called PARKLAND. It is a very moving story about the JFK assassination. That's all I can say right now.
14h ago
ΠΠΈΠ°Π³ΡΠ° @GorgeousT_T
@AUS10NICHOLS hmmmmmmmmmm sounds really good x x x again anything is good with you in it x x
13h ago
ΠΠΈΠ°Π³ΡΠ° @GorgeousT_T
@AUS10NICHOLS hey I can't reply to your DM as you are not following me . But thank you for lovely compliment x x mwah x x x x x x x x x x x
2h ago
NaΓ―s Martini @Nais_Martini
@AUS10NICHOLS I think I can't answer your message because you're not following me, even though I would love to ...
6h ago
Working on series and movie, but Austin always makes time for online sex with hot girls. What a man!!!
As you can see, you can't discuss anything with liars who make up shit like this.
But there are 1.000.000 posts on WFT saying Austin is gay. Who am I supposed to believe????????????
You are supposed to check out available info and form your own opinion. Like you do with other things in everyday life.
Thanks! I'll start reading Gyllenbabble.
5:58 am - even if Austin and Jake are gay, all we know about them proves that there is no Family Tile.
online sex with hot girls
...and IRL sex with hubby
6:04 am - bad idea. Hanging out with stupid fangirls is bad for your brain cell count :)
IRL sex with hubby
"Hubby" moved to East Coast long time ago + "hubby" is on filming location at the moment = there is no sex with "hubby".
online sex with hot girls
...and IRL sex with hubby
Since when gay, married to men, men need online sex with girls?
some posters here pretend Austin is str8 to yank OMGers chains
No one is making up Austin tweets or Austin's DMs to girls or tweets for Austin from girls.
You can't blame WFT2 for Austin's tweets about his girlfriends or unappropriate DMs to underage girls.
Why do you post those tweets then? Why don't you post Adam Latrine's tweets? You do it to stir up OMGs
6:36 am - is that a serious question?
Of course...if you think Austin is just a (straight) friend of Jake, why do you care about his "hot sex with teenagers" tweets and post them here day after day after day. The only reason I can think of is to stir OMGers.
Why do you post those tweets then? Why don't you post Adam Latrine's tweets? You do it to stir up OMGs
Good example of someone who refuses to use his / her brain.
On blog where Jake Gyllenhaal's sex life is discussed he / she asks why we post tweets from man who is speculated to be Jake's gay (ex-)lover. In other words, why do we bother with facts about man who some people claim is Jake's husband and parent of his kids.
Yes we all know Austin is gay as a goose and posts those DMs because he is in the closet.
if you think Austin is just a (straight) friend of Jake, why do you care about his "hot sex with teenagers" tweets and post them here day after day after day
For the millionth time: sane people base their opinions on available info. Opinion "Jake and Austin are just friends and there are no BTs" is based on facts about Jake and Austin. Austin being horny for young girls is one of those facts.
Yes we all know Austin is gay as a goose and posts those DMs because he is in the closet.
Sure, sure. And Jake moved to New York because living in LA, his home town, close to Austin, would make people think he has kids with Austin. LOL
Sorry 6:58, I said Austin is a gay as a goose. Didn't even mention Jake's name. Why are you raving on about Jake, and NYC and kids and LA etc
I think those sexy DMs from Austin are great - keep them coming. They show how desperate Austin is to appear straight. Thanks for posting them.
7:03 am, your playing stupid is too pathetic for words.
Austin dated Sophia Bush for years, we have recent photos of Austin being cosy with blonde woman, Austin's tweets about ex-girlfriends... Jake Gyllenhaal is the O-N-L-Y reason for your "Austin is gay as a goose and posts those DMs because he is in the closet".
Glad we are able to have different opinions here...such a breath of fresh air!
I'm starting to think Jake is straight after dating chinny for three years, pics of them being cosy, kissing, holding hands etc.
They show how desperate Austin is to appear straight.
Just your wishful thinking. After years weith Sophia Austin has no reason to make himself look straight.
Those DMs show that Austin is horny for girls and not very bright.
7:15 am - Of course. And Jake really dated Taylor Swift, too. LOL!!!
You were a great beard Soapy! Every one thinks Austin is straight
LOL!
OMGers keep pretending that this never happened:
Austin and girlfriend in Chicago, Nov 18, 2012
Austin Nichols and Ashley Hinshaw - Birthday party
Is that his new "girlfriend" aka beard?
OMGers about Austin & Ashley Hinshaw photos: Can't hear you!!!
LMAO!!! :)
LOL! Is that a replica of Austin's cawk?
Yes, it is!
You wish!
Austin and girlfriend in Chicago, Nov 18, 2012
Austin Nichols and Ashley Hinshaw - Birthday party
Is that his new "girlfriend" aka beard?
Nope, looks like Austin's girlfriend.
Great! Glad Austin is straight. Did Jake try and turn him gay?
Duh!!! I can turn everyone gay!
AUSTIN NICHOLS @AUS10NICHOLS
The movie I'm doing is called PARKLAND. It is a very moving story about the JFK assassination.
For a second I thought it's JFK assassination movie directed by Stephen Gyllenhaal.
Pfft!
Have you ever thought that Sophia Bush is a lesbian? So wonder she and Austin used in each other for so many years. They have been blinds that point to her having a relationship with one of OTH's production assistant.
Sure is funny AND convenient that Austin and Sophia broke up in January after the completion of the OTH filming in late November and then Austin was seen with Jake in January.
This blog comment section has been taken over by Austin is Straight trolls. Who'd have ever thought we'd be discussing Austin's sexual preference, which is not even up for debate outside the world of One Tree Hill Sophin diehards. Really remarkable.
Have you ever thought that Sophia Bush is a lesbian?
No. Don't think Sophia would marry a man so young if she was a lesbian.
This blog comment section has been taken over by Austin is Straight trolls.
Bullshit.
WFT2 didn't make Austin Nichols date a woman, tweet about ex girlfriends or send sexy DMs to girls.
3.21, I agree, remarkable. It's like the beach photos never happened and it's like tweeting equates to sex. Naive or what?
4:35 pm - it is OK if you want to ignore facts, but don't expect that from other people.
Gay, married men with kids don't tweet songs about ex-girlfriends they think about because that is insult to their husbands and family. Gay men don't walk around hugging women like Austin did. Married men with little kids to their best to be with them as much as possible. What beach photos from 2005 or 2006 have to do with Austin acting like single, heterosexual man?
Anonymous said...
LMAO!!! Austin really hates OMGers :)
Especially after Tom blabbered about Austin visting OMG from North Carolona.
Especially after Tom blabbered about Austin visting OMG from North Carolona.
Now Tom claims to have super powers? Or was it Special K? Crazy people.
The Austin is Straight brigade have overtaken this blog.
6:03 pm - this is not OMG blog, made up shit is not treated as fact here. Austin acts like a heterosexual man, you can't make that disappear. And you have nothing to support "Austin is in the closet because he's married to Jake" fiction.
Austin acts like a heterosexual man, you can't make that disappear.
Got no iron in the Jaustin fire (couldn't care less really) but you have got to be kidding me.
If every actor who put out an intentional, deliberate hetero image were actually straight, this blog wouldn't exist.
I suppose you think Jake is straight as well? Out with it.
Yes, Sophia Bush might be bi or gay. The lines are so blurred for women in Hollywood. there are more gay men than women in entertainment, but more bisexual women than bi men. Her marriage to CMM is irrelevant. Portia de Rossi was married to a man. There are many other examples. Sophia Bush has a huge lesbian following for some reason, which may mean nothing of course.
Post a Comment