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"For twenty-one years, I have been paralyzed by the fear of what this society will do with me if they ever were to know of the thoughts that I continually push away. For more than two decades, I have made a choice to be straight. After all, it’s as easy as making a choice, isn’t it? This culture has made sure that I know that. Anyone who is anything other than straight was just someone deceived by the devil. He is unnatural. He is confused. He is mistaken. He is weak. He can control it if he desires to control it. Such a compelling and ongoing argument has been made that I have always trusted it.
I believed that if I hid it long enough, and ran from it long enough, and refused to acknowledge it for long enough, I could indeed succeed at living up to their decrees. I believed that I could force myself to never be anything else.
Teeter-tottering on that belief, I got married. To a woman. Our marriage was laced with sexual anxiety and dysfunction. I loathed having sex with her not because I wasn’t attracted to her, but because my sexuality continually screamed to me that I was a deceitful sell-out who lacked integrity. We eventually got divorced.
I got married again. Quickly. To another woman. Surely, surely if I married someone fantastically beautiful and to whom I was very attracted, I would never have to acknowledge the truth whose screams were silenced inside of me all those years. I would never have to grant further thought to the feelings of self-betrayal that plagued me for so long. It was my choice, damn it, and I was choosing to be what I had to be.
She finally left. The last words that she chose to use before she drove away were, “I don’t care what you say, I know that you’re gay.”
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Source: Anything Other than Straight
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LOL indeed!
Hey, why aren't Minka and Lea on that list? They too were spotted on a date with Jake!!!
Jake did date Natalie, when she was 18 and he was 19. Before Kristen Dunst. They have known each other since they were kids. They broke up when she went to Harvard, he was at Columbia and he wanted to quit school and be an actor. Natalie is a family friend. She is close to his mother and his sister, too.
8:31 am Geez why so bitter?
I don't think Nat is a liar.
Nat never said that she dated Jake.
Jake did date Natalie, when she was 18 and he was 19.
Only in your mind.
In 2004, the actors split, though even years later, Dunst spoke fondly of her former beau. In 2009, she told Allure, "It would be nice to see him, but we're not good friends."
Gyllenhaal followed up his time with Dunst by hooking up with S Club 7 member Rachel Stevens in 2006 (after they had a brief fling in 2001) and Natalie Portman for a short time that same year. He then moved on to his "Rendition" co-star Reese Witherspoon in 2007.
http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1655328/jake-gyllenhaal-relationships.jhtml
8:31 am Geez why so bitter?
8:31 am isn't bitter, he/ she just (unlike you) reads bullshit used as argument for "Jake and Natalie dated" claim.
8:36 am - silly and transparent tablid bullshit is not an argument for "Jake really dated Nat" discussion.
Can't belive that fangirls are trying to sell "Jake & Nat" story.
She never denied, she would have been able to do it, but she has never done it.
I really don't think Nat is a liar.
8:36am, we know that Jake never dated Olivia. You could find and quote articles where they are mentioned as couple, but that wouldn't change facts.
She never denied, she would have been able to do it, but she has never done it.
I really don't think Nat is a liar
WTF are you talking about?!?
Nat not denying tablod fictin does not equal Nat confirmed dating with Jake.
8:36am, we know that Jake never dated Olivia. You could find and quote articles where they are mentioned as couple, but that wouldn't change facts.
Fangirls and OMGers hate facts, LOL :)
9:05am - have you read the comment?
8:36am, we know that Jake never dated Olivia. You could find and quote articles where they are mentioned as couple, but that wouldn't change facts.
Fact 1 - article is lying about Jake and Olivia dating.
Fact 2 - you can find and quote other articles about Jake and Olivia "dating", but that wouldn't change Fact 1.
Simple enough for you?
Fangirls and OMGers hate facts, LOL :)
Poor fangirls - Jake can't be bothered to "date a woman" again.
Poor OMGers - Austin hates them, too.
Good! lol
Geez, fangirls are bigger idiots than OMGers.
The blogosphere is That Big?
Huh?
Catherine Reber @cat_reber
Sophia Bush still follows Austin Nichols but not Chad Michael Murry....idk why but this fascinates me.
^Fascinating
She loves me, she really loves me!
Austin of course Sophia loves you! She's your bff fruit fly.
Nat should have denied the Jake dating story in 2006, which was fed to People Mag by Jake's camp, not hers. It was at the height of the gay rumors, and a clear PR move. (Wasn't it the exact same month that Sophia did a photo op with Jake as well?)
Nat was in a serious relationship at the time with Gael García Bernal, who probably didn't appreciate the story, but I guess she was just helping out an old friend.
Sophia doesn't follow CMM because he cheated on her with Paris Hilton.
AUSTIN NICHOLS @AUS10NICHOLS
First week of shooting on PARKLAND. Here's a little tease. http://fb.me/2gMUG11yw
Sophia Bush @SophiaBush
This is gonna be awesome! RT @AUS10NICHOLS: First week of shooting on PARKLAND. Here's a little tease. http://say.ly/jHL55i4
Sophia is nice :)
Interesting about Parkland!
Panorama Media To Proffer Jake Gyllenhaal-Starrer ‘Mississippi Grind’ In Berlin
EXCLUSIVE: Panorama Media, the production, finance and sales entity backed by Megan Ellison’s Annapurna Pictures, has boarded road trip drama Mississippi Grind. Anna Boden and Ryan Fleck are directing from their own script with Jake Gyllenhaal and Ben Mendelsohn starring. The pair play unlikely gamblers on a winning streak who head to New Orleans and along the way encounter old flames, loan sharks and some bad bets, but ultimately discover what’s really important in their lives. Gyllenhaal is producing along with Jamie Patricof and Lynette Howell of Electric Entertainment and John Lesher of Le Grisbi Productions. Shooting starts in the spring and Panorama will kick off sales at the EFM in Berlin next week.
What is a fruit fly?
Michael Pena @realmichaelpena
Bought two #endofwatch DVDs to sign and auction for charity. The guy at the register told me it was a really good movie then asked for ID.
28 J
Shooting starts in the spring and Panorama will kick off sales at the EFM in Berlin next week.
Spring = as soon as Prisoners filming is done. Austin who? BTs who?
6:30 am, tell us more about "Jake and Austin don't take work at the same time so one of them can be with kids" claim. Well?
Another LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL at you OMG idiots! LOL :)
Another LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL at you OMG idiots!
Very much so! :))))))
Kristen ✈ @HTGlobe
@AUS10NICHOLS Would love to DM you back but I can't since you're not following me. But yes is my response:) Where in the world are you now?
Bitch!!!
Gyllenhaal followed up his time with Dunst by hooking up with S Club 7 member Rachel Stevens in 2006 (after they had a brief fling in 2001) a
WHAT?? My brain hurts so much from all this crap.. ><
You are just jealous!!!
fangirls said...
You are just jealous!!!
February 02, 2013 3:44 pm
Uh..of what exactly?
Of hot, heterosexual sex with women of opposite sex!
PG is full of shit. As always!
She is, we hate her too!
At least we agree on something, LOL :)
I like PG!
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